Companion

In this wide world there is no one for keeps
Its just a trick of my mind i think i have it all 
Years scrammed by,undecided, waited for life to turn to miracles
But when i opened my eyes from the intoxicated sweetness of illusions i  find no one around!  
As a loner I rest in my grave of the un-understood sorrows.
 world is a place is not as selfless as i thought
The intrigues within is beyond comprehension of one.
 though vaguely aware of the life- functions,the existence of the untrue never convinced selfBut, it dint take long to shatter my beliefs  and wake me to the reckoning truth
the more thy recoiled from the factuality the more was thy torpid
And as Bacon said on friendship,i could'nt even follow so,
true to his words i'm turning into a morbid heart
To thy dismay,i donnot even know if i am tomfoolery? 
But ,all i know is my heart needs to drain 
Then,to hush my self,i find solace in youThe pen and the paper! 
that gives me true company
 and A Companion for life!